Analysis "A Letter to Myself" by Postmodernism

A Letter to Myself

By: Melissa Paiz

The clock strikes three in the morning and I find myself still awake

Tossing and turning

Thinking and thinking about the day that awaits.

My mind is against me

But my heart tells me to be strong.

It tells me that I will eventually find my euphoric key -

I just need to hold on.

There are reasons why people live on and face the mundane

And sometimes bleak hours of this thing we call life.

There are reasons we enjoy the sunrise,

Every morning bird’s song, 

And how some people push the thought of suicide away and put down the knife.

The laughter loved one’s cause, 

The warmth of a hug and a sweet late night kiss, 

It is in these moments that the wounded souls find bliss.

I've written words of hatred towards myself for many years,

Words that I'd never call anyone else,

Words filled with anger and fears.

Dear me who has pushed through pain,

Attempted ending of all,

And has built an indestructible wall to protect what's left of a broken person.

You love so much and yet never give the same amount to yourself

You help other when they fall,

But you hurt yourself instead of asking for help

You see all of your faults and tear yourself down,

You continue this cycle until you start to drown.

Analysis:

“A Letter to Myself” poem was created by Melissa Paiz on June 25, 2018. This poem belongs to postmodernism, because it was written in postmodernism era and in postmodernism itself, everything is subjective and all perceptions are constructed. In this poem, the poet tells about her feelings, about her circumstances where she was experiencing the depression and she tried to rise from her depression and to support that she could get through it alone. It can be seen from the dictions that she used in her poem, she always supported herself when her own weak circumstance, she tried to reinforce herself as well. There are implied messages where she not only support her own self but also people who have depression. 

Moreover, all perceptions and responds from readers can be seen by us in her comment box on her Youtube channel. Readers’ perceptions says that probably Melissa wrote that poem because she had a serious problem which causes she was in the weakest moment and at the end she could rise from her problem and got rid of her own fears. Then, readers’ responds is so various and pretty great. Some of them support her and people who are in weakest moment, some of them experience what Melissa felt, some of them are truly touched by Melissa’s poem and make them crying.